As i look at her, i see that at time she is bored just listening to lectures, she gives a frown and stares right in front. When i asked her abt it the previous semester, she always give me the answer that its her default look, can't be changed. And each time i look at her, i can't help but smile to myself, urging myself to tell her not to frown so much.
God, i previous time i told you how much i love her, how much i want to be with her. And trust me that the feeling is still around and going strong. Every night, i hope that you could take good care of her, keep her healthy, make sure that she has sufficient rest, understand all the lesson taught in class, be disciplined in her studies and at the same time do well for her studies.
Funny thing, each time i watch a romance movie, i can't help but wonder why can't i have this kind of relationship with the person i love. And at times, i blame you, God, for all of it. I know its kind of wrongful to blame you when things don't work out the way i hoped for, and for that, i am sorry, God. But i do have one request. God, is that you don't give up on me trying to fall in love with the person i care the most. Help me alongside, give me a push when you think that i shld go abit more further in pursuing the person i love, this time don't let me do nothing and hope for the best, guide me along as i am new in falling in love, God. As for the rest, i leave it up to you, God, trusting you in all things you do.
I found out that she hardly smiles at me when we talk, and sometimes, listening to her talk and even talking to her makes me feel happy inside. Her attitude towards may have changed slightly abit and i really hope to know why. But as i always believe, i love her and will always be by her side, i will still be that guy that tells her to smile and ask her how she is. It may be painful, and i am sure you know it, God, but somehow now i understand it is the choice i have chosen and will have to live with it. Thats why i hope you will be there beside me, guiding me as i love this girl.
No matter what, bless that girl i love, God. Don't give up on me as i try my best to chase after her and make her fall in love with me, and allow me to have more faith in you, God. And hopefully, i may have the chance to be that special guy for her, loving her all my life.
Remember, don't give up on me, God, help me to win this girl heart, because i really love Jolyn alot and hope to make her happy all my life.
